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October 27, 2012 / thegirlwhotooktheleap

The daily grind

It’s been a while since I’ve posted.

I’ve been busy, yes, but it’s not like I didn’t have the time to post if I really wanted to. It’s just that up until now I still don’t know what to write, what to say and how to express the myriad of emotions and feelings going through me right now. It really has been a crazy couple of weeks.

I guess I should go back to the start..

I’ll begin on the day I dropped Tim off at his armory.

October 8, Monday

On this day I still had to go to school for a while to do all my scheduled therapy sessions.. I left early and skipped my night class because I had to drop Timmy off that night. It was one of those days where you knew that the inevitable goodbye was coming but we tried to make it a fun day because we were still together. There would be enough time for tears when we were apart, we needed to make the most of the day we had left. Tim had a weird schedule, he needed to be at the armory at 9pm for formation but then had off after formation until 2am.. That was about 4 hours. 4 hours that made all the difference to me and him. We didn’t want to spend that time apart. So I went and called all the hotels/motels around the area, desperate to book a room. Everything was full, but we finally ended up finding a bed and breakfast who could accommodate us. We told them we would arrive at 8pm but only stay till like 6am. They said that was fine. I decided to stay the night there after dropping Tim off only because I did not want to drive myself back to Bloomsburg at 3 in the morning. Mind you, this was THE VERY FIRST TIME I WAS DRIVING BY MYSELF FOR TWO WHOLE HOURS. It was a huge deal! To top it off, not only would I have had to drive myself back at night which I had never done before, it would be after dropping off my husband? I don’t think so. So we got the room. YAY! Settled. Best $100 ever spent.

Then we had to do some last-minute chores. We returned his leased car, which was really sad. It was bittersweet to see the Honda go, but at the same time I was amazed at how easy the process was to return the car. After we returned the Honda we just relaxed for a bit and cuddled, and then decided it was time to get ready to go. We drove to New Milford, and he went to formation. I saw some families there, everyone looked pretty sad and you could just feel the sense of dread and loneliness looming all around the armory. It was a weird feeling.

After formation we looked for a place to eat. We ended up in Denny’s and were surprised to find out that our meal was free!! Apparently, Denny’s was treating all the soldiers and families who were set to deploy. It was really nice of them to do that. We then went back to the B&B to get some rest, and the very nice lady who ran the place told us that our stay that night was free as well. She said she felt bad that we had to come under such circumstances, but that hopefully we would come back once he returned from deployment. I was really overwhelmed by everyone’s kindness that night. Those two events made the awful night somewhat bearable for us.

We woke up at 1:30 and headed back.. I stayed there till 3am and finally decided to go back. The goodbye was tough as you can imagine.. I can’t even write about it. I remember crying hard, I remember throwing up. I remember pleading for him to stay. And most of all, I remember seeing his pained face as I drove out of the armory, seeing him wave goodbye.. It was truly awful. 😦

I went back to the B&B, slept for about 2 hours and then drove back to Bloomsburg and went on with my day just like it was any other day. I was heartbroken and exhausted, but I was happy to have survived that ordeal. It was truly a crazy experience..

Since then my life has pretty much just been on autopilot. I go about my day just focusing on school, putting all my energy on studying, my thesis and planning therapy sessions.. It keeps me busy and keeps me sane. Everyone has been really supportive, and I honestly could not have asked for a better set of friends and supervisors. I would not be able to survive without them.

Surprisingly, I’m still doing well in school despite everything. Thesis has also been coming along swimmingly. I can’t believe I can finally see the light at the end of the tunnel. I am now down to my results and discussion section. It’s amazing that I even made it this far!

As for my pregnancy, its been going great. I am now almost 25 weeks. Not much has changed since except for my growing tummy! Baby has been kicking constantly, and I feel great! I’m glad that I’ve been handling this pregnancy so well. It’s a relief that this is something going right for me, because I don’t know if I can handle any more added stress in my life. Knowing that my pregnancy has been going well is something I can be proud of. 🙂

19- 21- 24 WEEKS!

HALLOWEEN PARTY (23 weeks)

OUTLET SHOPPING WITH DIONA 🙂

Speaking of pregnancy, my class threw a surprise baby shower for Sam and I, the other pregnant girl in my class. It was so nice, and so incredibly sweet of them. Did I mention that I had the best classmates and supervisors?? Well I do. 🙂

BU SPEECHIES 2013!


That’s pretty much my life in a nutshell so far. Pregnant, and surviving my first deployment together with graduate school. It’s tough but I’m tougher, that’s for sure!! Right now as I am writing this, I am preparing myself for my first major hurdle as a wife with a deployed husband: surviving my first major hurricane without him. Hurricane Sandy is supposed to hit us tomorrow, but I’ve already stocked up on water and food.. Hopefully it won’t be too bad though! We shall see!

Let me leave this post with a recent Skype screenshot of Timmy and I. Oh how I miss him!! Thanksgiving can’t come soon enough. 🙂

So that’s all for now..

For those in the path of Hurricane Sandy, stay safe and dry!

PS. If you ever end up in New Milford, PA and need a place to stay, I highly recommend this B&B! Lovely house, lovely owners.. We can’t wait to go back 🙂

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  1. louisa / Oct 29 2012 5:10 am

    keep it up girl…you can do it,you don’t know how strong you are until being strong is the only option you have.i trust you will be fine ok,my prayers are with you.take of you bye.

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