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November 2, 2012 / thegirlwhotooktheleap

It’s the ordinary days that get to you

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Today was just one of those days where I really missed my hubby and parents šŸ˜¦

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Spent the day doing some chores and lots of online “browsing” lol. It takes a lot of self-control to not go crazy buying stuff online. It really does keep my mind off things, but I’ve been trying to get used to the fact that I need to save because the baby should come first now.. And there will be a lot of expenses once the baby comes!

I did good today though. I made sure our Honda payments have ceased, I worked on suspending Tim’s line so that our Verizon bills go down (and I just discovered I’m due for an upgrade so iPhone here I come!!), and I also took one car out of our car insurance since we returned the Honda already. The only annoying thing is that it is very inconvenient to have to fax his POA whenever I make these calls, since everything was in Tim’s name.

I just miss him so much šŸ˜¦ He’s been so busy lately and he hasn’t had much time to call. It really does get to me. šŸ˜¦

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I actually have a big day tomorrow! I am taking an important test.. Wish me luck guys!! Hopefully it won’t be too bad. I guess I could have been better prepared for it but given my circumstances I am really doing my best.

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I remember reading another military wife’s blog and how she said how its the ordinary days that are hard, not the holidays.. because you plan your holidays and you find something to do and someone to be with but the ordinary days are hard..the days when you’re home alone and you start to remember everything you used to do together and see the empty spot next to you. Those are the days that get to you.

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I honestly don’t know how I can handle the next goodbye. I don’t know if I can do it, if I can be strong enough to survive such a separation. I am trying so hard to be strong, and to keep going, but it’s so hard. šŸ˜¦ I hate feeling this way. I hate feeling so weak and helpless. I need to be strong for Johnny. I need to be strong for Timmy.

I need to be strong. I wish there was a supplement I could take for that.

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  1. misstrulyasia / Nov 3 2012 8:59 am

    Hi šŸ™‚ I stumbled upon your blog when I was searching for something related to the K-1 visa. You have a pretty neat blog. Keep writing and stay strong!

    • thegirlwhotooktheleap / Nov 3 2012 2:53 pm

      Thank you so much!! Are you going through K1? Best of luck on your visajourney!

      • misstrulyasia / Nov 3 2012 11:40 pm

        I am. I’m hoping to apply for grad school this fall too. Thank you for your well wishes. I hope all is well with you. p/s: congratulations on expecting a little bundle of joy

      • thegirlwhotooktheleap / Nov 4 2012 12:34 am

        That’s awesome!! Good luck on your grad school application too! šŸ™‚ And thanks! We are very excited about the baby šŸ™‚

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